The Cutter's Lullaby

I fell in love with this little song over the weekend, it's so beautiful

I'm trying to remember the entire thing, and i think i got it

Go to sleep and close your eyes, and dream of broken butterflies
That tore their wings against a thorn, you know the pain that they've endured
Silver metal shines so bright, Crimson blood that feels so right
Dream of that blood trickling down, and wake up just before you drown
The moonlight's shining off your tears, as you bleed out your own worst fears
So tonight when you start to cry, whisper the cutter's lullaby
Hushabye baby you're almost dead, you have no pulse and your pillow is red
Your family hates you, Your friends let you bleed, Sleep tight with a knife cuz that's all you'll need
Rockabye baby broken and scarred, you didn't know life would this hard
Time to end the pain you hid so well, and down will come baby straight back to hell

So This Morning...

So...this morning i really just tortured myself because i cut this morning and they have been hurting like hell all day...i just wanna go home and lay down and just think and be calm...and let the pain subside after awhile.

I'm okay....it's no big deal...no one cares anyway :/

Reading Harry Potter

wow, i haven't posted in awhile...anyway i'm making a boring post about the fact that i'm reading Harry Potter...i'm on the second book because i finally found it in the library, i can't wait to read the rest, i'll probably be done them all in like 2 weeks~ and then that's off my reading list :)

Soul Eater :D

I
LOVE
LOVE
LOVE

SOUL EATER

 

 

 

my favorite characters are Corona & Stein <3 ohmygawd Corona is ADORABLE !!!!!

Stein is just friggin' awesome~

Rice Balls & Curry Buns

So on Wednesday, i'll be attempting to make curry buns and rice balls for a club meeting on Thursday, it's for Asian Awareness :D

It'll be my first time, and i hope i don't fuck it up too bad, and i'll also be trying to make rainbow cupcakes for a photography project and also to eventually eat.

Anyway, i'm done for now~

I cut myself

I cut myself…I’ve been cutting since the 5th grade, ima sophomore in high school right now….as much as I say I’ll be there if anyone needs me {and I will} I wish I was able to lean on someone for support...

Sadness' Mist~

This is just a stupid little poem i made up during class, enjoy~

 

 

 

In the shadows

something lurks within the darkness

it cannot be seen

it cannot be touched

it is sadness, ready to consume you

it is depression, ready to harm you

A grey, gloomy, frightening mist is what

prompts your sudden sadness, it takes control`

and never lets go

I have fallen victim to the mist

i cannot escape it

it has pulled me in

And will not release its grasp

in the morning i let it plant horrid thoughts

within my head

At night i let it control my movements like i am its puppet on strings

it makes me cut away at my skin, it leaves me a gruesome bloody mess

while i sleep, the mist attempts to invade my dreams, every night, i fail to keep it away

I am consumed by this sadness

it has a firm grasp upon me