Maybe...

Maybe I wouldn't feel so worthless, and so done with life if I had a friend who cared about me and was there for me.

I really miss the year where I was so emerged in my online accounts that I was actually making friends and talking to people.

I wouldn't mind that again, but I'm not social at all, I wait for someone to talk to me first 

Maybe I'll wait awhile, and see if I can make any friends before I end my life

At least let me live my life to the fullest before I commit suicide...