Whatever

I am so done with her, it's not even funny.
So yesterday I'm like, lemme try and break the ice again,
So we can start talking,
I then during lunch go back into my Google Docs,
And find a document with a list a nicknames I used to call her,
All completely appropriate, and just in fun,
(They were words spelled backwards)
I print out the list and add a little note at the bottom,
About it's okay to not wanna be friends, but just let me know.
I get to Film Class, and before she gets there,
I tell the boys to write "Ohcapzag" on the chalk board,
Then another boy wants to know another nickname,
So they can address with the nickname,
(Again all in fun)
She enters the room, and he says "Hey Nuttob."
She then proceeds to just act like he called her some horrid,
Inappropriate name, just being rude and saying,
"I hate that so much"
My face just drained of color,
I thought it would be a good idea to go back to our friendship with that,
Because before, she used to laugh or give me the funny bitchface for these nicknames,
She yesterday just completely shut me the fuck down,
I say to her, my voice so low,
that "It was just supposed to be funny." &
"No need to be crabby, I didn't mean to upset you."
She made me feel like complete shit for no reason,
I literally tried, but if she's gonna keep ignoring me,
And making me feel bad for trying to make her laugh/smile,
Then I'm done, there was really no reason for that yesterday,
It really hurt my feelings, and I don't need negativity from her anymore,
I wanted my friend back, but not if I have to feel bad about it first




I'm done venting, thanks for reading.

Happy Monday

So it's Monday.
Joy to the world.
I'm freezing.
Anyway lemme give you an update on what happened Friday and Sunday.
On Friday I gave her a folder with a letter in it,
Along with some Supernatural pictures
And just as I was writing about that encounter,
She sits down at the table I was at and we start talking.
I also made her some Destiel pictures.
When I got home, I painted a cup for her, as well.
On Sunday (Let's just skip Saturday)
We went to the Berlin farmer's market
And I got the thing I have been wanting for a looooooong time
I got an original Xbox !
I have been wanting to play Jet Set Radio Future for the longest time
And now I finally can !
Fuck Yes !