It's Been About a Month

Hey, so I graduated ! Same day as well, our graduation wasn't rained out like the past couple of years.
I've been dealing with some stuff lately and I've been having some mixed moods.
I'm upset about A LOT of shit and I don't know what to make things better. However I am excited about college and I'm excited to start buying and packing stuff.
I'll try to post once a week, but I'm not promising anything. These demons are really holding me back lately.

Can I Just Say....

Can I just say how fucking fed up I am with people who treat me like shit...
Like really, my ex-boyfriend of 3 years refuses to talk to me, and we didn't even really break up
We haven't seen other people or anything, he just started hating me, for no apparent reason
And when I reach out to him, it's like am I messaging you ? Are you there ?
It's been months, and sometimes he'll pop a message in here or there, and it's usually rude
I miss him, I miss just being able to have someone on my side, who would always talk with me.
It's frustrating now, I come home, and it's silence until the next morning when I go to school
And school lets out for the summer in a week, and then it'll be silence 24/7
I hate it....I can't handle it...it pushes the boundaries of my mentality
And no matter how often I try to look for a friend, no one reaches out to me
So I'm just fed up mostly with this boy, he's 20, but he's no man, he's a fucking child
I can't deal anymore....I can't.