Paradise~

She dreams of para-para-paradise <3

Procrastination

So i should really be typing up my 3 page paper due tomorrow that i waited until the last minute to do because i'm a bum.

I need serious motivation, and getting a bad grade isn't motivation for me to finish it and get it turned in on time xD

i just talked with my friend Aubree for a few minutes, i have a little bit of motivation, but now i just really wanna talk to her x3

Anyway, i have a lot of shit to do before i can go to bed tonight, so...one little paper won't be the only thing keeping me up tonight >.>

Afterschool

Today i am afterschool, i'm selling cookies until 3:30, then i get to be bored with a teacher for an hour and a half, then i'm selling concessions for wrestling.

Right now i'm in the library, on the computer listening to college kids talk about their college life :D

Most of them are old drama kids :'D

Anyway, i'm bored for now, and my order needs to arrive like now~

Impatient

I ordered my friends some stuff from Hot Topic and i'm just so anxious and impatient to get it >_<
I got them their Christmas presents and i just wanna give it to them to see them smile :)

I got them 3 gifts each and i'm making them sweets, i'm basically spoiling them because i love them both a lot

I can't wait until Valentine's day to spoil them again x3

BUT I'M JUST SO IMPATIENT WAITING FOR THEIR GIFTS D:

NO CHRISTMAS TREE !?!?!?!

Tell me how it's like a week from Christmas and i don't have a Christmas Tree up or any decorations ?

I'm mad as hell -.-

I guess it'll be late but i'll put it sometime this week and it'll stay up until July :D

I am a Christmas Gurl, i always decorate and shizz the day after Thanksgiving, what happened this year ??!?! D':

RADIOACTIVE

 

Okay, well my friend had told me about this song by Imagine Dragons called "Radioactive" and i didn't really pay much attention to what she had me listen to, but over the weekend i revisited this song by accident, because i forgot about it, and since yesterday evening "Radioactive" is the only song i've been listening to, i keep repeating it and i won't let it go on to another song :D

They treat me like a disease that needs to be cured...

Pretty Rave Girl~

My favorite song : Pretty Rave Gurl

 

I know this Pretty Rave Gurl

Always think about her

When she says "hi" to me

Butterflies go right through me

And when i see her dancing

I wanna take a chance and

Getting a little closer

And maybe get to know her~

Tim Burton~

FAVORITE DIRECTOR

ROLE MODEL

I JUST ADORE HIS WORKS

TIM BURTON = GOD {to me}

I'm so lazy...

I'm so lazy...and just so unenthusiatic about the 30 Day Self Harm Challenge, i keep forgetting to type up the days, daily...but whatever...i'll do it eventually or just do it all in one big shot after i'm done it completely.


I've been feeling very invisible lately and also very sad, but that's nothing new...I made some new cuts on my arm, i didnt use scissors this time...i basically used a steak knife...disgusting

But i'm okay...or at least i'll let myself believe that

Maybe i'll make a happier post later on anime or Tim Burton or whatever, just to not sound so depressing and pathetic :/

Anyway, goodbye for now~

LAZY

I'm sooooo lazy to write the rest of them, plus i'm not in the best of moods, so i'll write them later :/

30 Self Harm Challenge : Day 2 12/2/12

What part of your body is most affected by it ?

 

 

My arms

30 Day Self Harm Challenge : Day One 12/1/12

I started writing this in my journal and forgot to post once I started, so I'm just gonna post all the days until now and continue daily...I promised my friends i'd do this for them, so here it is.

How long have you been self harming ? Discuss why you started.

 

 

Since 5th grade...i started on the 1 year anniversary of my grandfather's death, and since then it's just been a way of coping, punishing myself, and controlling the pain.

 

 

Anime~

Here’s my list of ANIME that i could remember i have watched/am watching, there’s probably more but i’m brain dead :D {this only includes shows, no movies}


Naruto/Naruto Shippuden
Blood+
Black Butler
When They Cry
Ouran Highschool Host Club
Death Note
Magikano
Maburaho
Negima
Mai-Hime
Black Cat
SuperGALS
One Piece
Samurai Deeper Kyo
Inuyasha
Ninja Nonsense
Peach Girl
Pokemon
Romeo X Juliet
Rumbling Hearts
School Rumble
Shugo Chara
Soul Eater
The Melchanoly of Haruhi Suzumiya
This Ugly Yet Beautiful World
Tsubasa Chronicles
Deadman Wonderland
Full Metal Panic
D.N. Angel
Angel Beats
Hell Girl
.hacks//Roots
Azumanga Daioh
Trinity Blood
UFO Ultramaiden Valkyrie
Cardcaptor Sakura
Elfen Lied
Descendants of Darkness
Revoultuionary Girl Utena
Fruits Basket
Gravitation
Strawberry Panic
Ikki Tousen
Junjou Romantica
Vampire Knight
XxxHolic
To Heart
Vampire Princess Miyu
Nabari no Ou
Nana
Etc. :3

Monday

I'm not in the best mood, but it's a half day at school so I can't wait to go home and take a nap....I think I might indulge in a little self harm....all I feel is sadness and I feel like something is my fault and I need to punish myself for it.....I feel like I'm about to lose my prince and that's not okay in my book...

So what am I to do...