I don't know

So, I haven't been in a good mood as of late, the other night I woke up crying, and couldn't go back to sleep, I had to talk myself down from an extreme suicidal high. Thank god it worked or I would not be typing this for you guys to view.

I also am very angry with my ex *cough* Andrew Dragon Carrero *cough* he's a fucking bastard that deserves to die, so yeah. Last thing I sent him was me telling him he's a cunt.

I also had this awesome idea for me and my friends, to do a photo shoot at the end of the summer for me, I'm planning 2 outfits right now, it's just all about getting the money. I need about $350 to make it happen because the one dress/costume I want is $186.95. So yeah, working on finding a job for the weekends because I babysit for some money during the week.

My moods are varying lately, one minute I can be perfectly fine, the next I hate the world and I just want it all to end. It's like whatever.

DREADFUL DAY

Today is the anniversary of my grandfather's death...

I really miss Papi ♥

I wish he was here, there's so many problems with my family that he would've neutralized

Monday

I'm not in the best mood, but it's a half day at school so I can't wait to go home and take a nap....I think I might indulge in a little self harm....all I feel is sadness and I feel like something is my fault and I need to punish myself for it.....I feel like I'm about to lose my prince and that's not okay in my book...

So what am I to do...

Bad Mood Morning

Not in the best mood this morning....I need a hug from my friends D: but I don't see them until in between the 7/8 and 9/10 period....some people just love to ruin mornings with problems :/ hopefully I'm not bummed out the entire day because of him....plus he needs to answer me -.- anyway GOOD MORNING~