I don't know

So, I haven't been in a good mood as of late, the other night I woke up crying, and couldn't go back to sleep, I had to talk myself down from an extreme suicidal high. Thank god it worked or I would not be typing this for you guys to view.

I also am very angry with my ex *cough* Andrew Dragon Carrero *cough* he's a fucking bastard that deserves to die, so yeah. Last thing I sent him was me telling him he's a cunt.

I also had this awesome idea for me and my friends, to do a photo shoot at the end of the summer for me, I'm planning 2 outfits right now, it's just all about getting the money. I need about $350 to make it happen because the one dress/costume I want is $186.95. So yeah, working on finding a job for the weekends because I babysit for some money during the week.

My moods are varying lately, one minute I can be perfectly fine, the next I hate the world and I just want it all to end. It's like whatever.

*sighs*

I want Al to hate me, I want Brooke to hate me....I want them both to despise my very existence

Done...

I have no idea what I wanna talk about, I don't even know why I'm writing this, All I know is that I'm really upset, I haven't been very productive, and I just really hate myself, and I just wanna go home and cry

I'm very dedicated to my clubs and activities, but I don't feel like doing anything today which is kinda bad...I'm always busy, and I can't stand it right now...I just wanna go home and sleep...but if I sleep then I'll never wake up or get outta bed for a long time.

So tired right now...and I miss my friends....very much...