Dear Prince,

Dear Prince, i know at the moment if you didn't hate me already you probably do right now and want me to just leave you the hell alone, but i can't...it's been an hour or two since i last replied to you (granted it was something rude, but...) i miss you...i miss us...i miss our fun, our laughs, our smiles, and all our good times...you've been ignoring me for a month to get back at me for being suicidal...and i think you were completely wrong to do that...it was mean and it put me in the mindset that you didn't love me...I just wanna talk to you right now...and tell you what i'm feeling without you leaving for hours and coming back like it's no big deal...i love you...and i just wanna talk...find a way to call me...please...or heytell me...something...i know you can...because if you had no signal you wouldn't be messaging me to begin with....plus i miss your voice....it's been months hunny...i'm sorry for everything....come back...

Where are you ?

Sometimes i think Al likes to make me upset...i don't text him because he never replies...so i wait on Skype to see if he ever logs on and he doesn't...i bet he forgot that i wanted him to talk to me...it doesn't piss me off...but i am so in like with him that it makes me sad that he forgets me...and i wanted to see if i could see him at the end of the month...so...lets hope that if i text him right now...that he'll see and remember i wanted to have a talk with him...(sorry for sounding whiny, i'm just in a terrible mood and i have absolutely no one to vent to)

I Lied....

Ya know how a couple weeks ago i said i was watching Doctor Who ? Weeeeeell, i watched the first episode and never went back, i tried twice to continue but i somehow (last week) got hooked on My Little Pony xD (i know PATHETIC) but i really enjoy it, it's cute and i don't usually go for little kiddie shows like that....anyway I'm behind on my schedule of becoming a SUPERWHOLOCK fan D: WAAAAAAAAYYYYY BEHIND....I think i'm gonna start Supernatural first then come back to Doctor Who, cuz i already slightly enjoy Supernatural, i've seen a couple episodes (out of order)....My favroite character from Supernatural is Mr. Fizzles x3 anyway SUPERWHOLOCK is my mission~

SO EMBARRASSED

So, today after school, I was walking Al to the buses (like I usually do everyday), and I say "I like you" to him like I do when I'm being nice and playful. And he says, "You think I don't know, it's obvious." 

Oh my gawd, my face got so hot, my heart started racing, and I almost started to cry (I managed to keep from crying until I got home, yes I know PATHETIC) 

He tried to hug me goodbye, but I was so flustered I kept backing away from him and saying "No." I just was really upset, and I couldn't handle it. So I'm kinda scared to see him on Monday.

Sorry to post my embarrassing & pathetic experience guys D:

I'm so lazy...

I'm so lazy...and just so unenthusiatic about the 30 Day Self Harm Challenge, i keep forgetting to type up the days, daily...but whatever...i'll do it eventually or just do it all in one big shot after i'm done it completely.


I've been feeling very invisible lately and also very sad, but that's nothing new...I made some new cuts on my arm, i didnt use scissors this time...i basically used a steak knife...disgusting

But i'm okay...or at least i'll let myself believe that

Maybe i'll make a happier post later on anime or Tim Burton or whatever, just to not sound so depressing and pathetic :/

Anyway, goodbye for now~

Self Harm Assignment {Taken 11/21/12}

My Self Harm Assignment

Age?

15

Sex?

Female

Label yourself (prep, goth, druggie, weirdo, etc)

Labels are overrated...

How long have you been cutting?

about 5 years

Favorite tool?

Scissors

Where (place) do you cut (school, home, etc.)?

my bedroom

Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time?

not usually, but I do to avoid talk

Do you cut on your stomach, or chest?

no

Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars?

Yes

What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut?

what's the point of an excuse anymore ?

Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting?

Not overnight

when was the last time you cut?

2 days ago

Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have?

I don't know...a couple

Do you have (diagnosed) depression, and/or bipolar/bpd?

They believe I am depressed and have bipolar disorder

Who knows you cut?

The librarian, my guidance counselor, my two friends

Have you ever been caught cutting?

no

Have your parents ever confronted you about a bloody sleeve, or towel?

Never

Did you have a good childhood?

...I suppose

Why do you cut?

N/A

Have you ever talked to a therapist or counselor?

Unfortunately, yes

Do you want to stop cutting (but can’t because of addiction)?

Surprisingly. No I don't.

Do you like cutting?

I prefer not to answer.

How many times have you tried to commit suicide?

twice

What are your views on cutting, and other self-injury?

my opinion doesn't matter

Do you like watching movies with self-injury?

If they're actually good movies

Do you like looking at pictures of self-injury?

It disturbs me sometimes

Do you sometimes envy other people (non-self-injurers)

I envy no one....

Have you ever taken any pictures of your cuts/scars?

I have.

Do you want to die?

At this moment in time....very much

Have you ever done a school assignment on cutting, or self-injury?

No

What do you like to listen to while cutting/depression/etc.?

Lately it's been Viva La Vida by Coldplay

Have you ever needed stitches from cutting?

Negative

Do you dream about cutting?

Negative

What do you use to bandage your cuts?

Absolutely nothing


Taken 11/21/12