UGH WHY ?

So, my throat is killing me, and it's bothering the hell outta me. My head uber hurts, really bad headache.

Oh, and today I was informed that I will be going for a check up, due to my self harm.


On a lighter note, I am planning out some cosplays for when i lose the weight, extremely excited.

Ugh, signing off because my head is starting to pound, goodbye dears~

Morning

So I was on Tumblr, just fucking around, and I type in what I want to aspire to be (a Stage Manager) and I see all this stuff that basically screams if you don't like hard work and dedication turn away now, and I'm just sitting here thinking bring it on, when I finally enter college and start studying to become a stage manager, I want that hard work, and no sleep, and dedication, and long nights...I'll be signing up for the long run. I'm only a Junior in High School and have only stage managed two high school plays, but I got the bug and I want the complexity of this job, I know I can handle it, I mean I already don't have a life~

Any stage managers around ?

Back from the Dead...

I have finally returned, but I bring neutral news....I have started biting myself as a coping mechanism for my anxiety and my depressed states of mind. I have left my hand, swollen and red, that is not okay, but whatever. I consider it better than cutting for now.

My friend is upset, and he won't tell me why....it is another reason I bite, I don't like that he's miserable, I wish I could take his misery away.

I promise to come back, if someone actually reads my blog, so be prepared for some posts.

Also anyone going to AnimeNEXT in June ? I am possibly~ It was fun last year

Sadness Sucks

In such a horrid state of mind right now, I just want out of it...

I'm at Kotoricon in Sewell, NJ

Yeah, so my friends and I decided to come to Kotoricon this year, I'm Marceline the Vampire Queen and they're cosplaying Tavros, Gamzee, and Kankri from Homestuck....yippee, well right now I'm a lost puppy waiting for them wherever they went. 3:

Yea....so Happy New Year

Yeah, so I uh, know that it's already 7 days into the New Year, but HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL YOU LOVELY DEARS !~

Don't Look At Me...I'm Ugly !

I forgot to apply eyeliner to my eyelids this morning, and so now i'm eyeliner-less....and i feel disgusting....it's yucky....I NEED EYELINER...this is the second time I left the house without my black eyeliner for school....ugh...6 more hours of school and then I can go home and put on eyeliner to feel acceptable :/