Wig Monstrosity

So, yesterday night I decided to attempt to detangle my beast of a wig.


I tore out so many fibers, it's not even funny, but it still looks good fiber wise.


I started from the bottom and would gradually work my way up, but it would just tangle more and more.


I tried a lotion/water solution I saw in a deviantart tutorial, and it was okay.


I had my brother wear my wig as I tried to mantain it.


I eventually got it nice enough to braid it into a decent braid, which also left the top of the wig, kind of ratty.


I am never purchasing a 40in wig again, I do not like the stress.


I also didn't want to just throw out my first wig.


However it looks okay for now, I plan on sporting it for Halloween, and just wearing a hat or scarf over the top of my head.

Can I Just Talk ?

So, I'm done trying, I came to the conclusion that there's no point in trying if your effort is thrust back into your face. I wanted to make this work, but making me cry because you wanna be heartless is literally the last straw. I cannot keep making myself seem fine, when I'm not. You literally acted two-faced, last Friday we seemed okay like there was a shimmer of hope, but this week, all that was dashed away by your actions and words. I know I fucked up royally, it was literally all my fault, but I decided to be the bigger person and just try, try one last time to at least be civil with each other, but alas it was all in vain. I don't know I just wanted to be friends again, and it just wasted my time to have it be worthless. I am allowed to be upset, I am allowed to vent, I am allowed to do whatever I want regarding this situation as long as I am not in any way harming her. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm going through my Senior Year without any friends. My hunny and doll graduated and are in Texas, and that's about it. I'm done talking, I'm just upset and wanna just find a real friend.

Whatever

I am so done with her, it's not even funny.
So yesterday I'm like, lemme try and break the ice again,
So we can start talking,
I then during lunch go back into my Google Docs,
And find a document with a list a nicknames I used to call her,
All completely appropriate, and just in fun,
(They were words spelled backwards)
I print out the list and add a little note at the bottom,
About it's okay to not wanna be friends, but just let me know.
I get to Film Class, and before she gets there,
I tell the boys to write "Ohcapzag" on the chalk board,
Then another boy wants to know another nickname,
So they can address with the nickname,
(Again all in fun)
She enters the room, and he says "Hey Nuttob."
She then proceeds to just act like he called her some horrid,
Inappropriate name, just being rude and saying,
"I hate that so much"
My face just drained of color,
I thought it would be a good idea to go back to our friendship with that,
Because before, she used to laugh or give me the funny bitchface for these nicknames,
She yesterday just completely shut me the fuck down,
I say to her, my voice so low,
that "It was just supposed to be funny." &
"No need to be crabby, I didn't mean to upset you."
She made me feel like complete shit for no reason,
I literally tried, but if she's gonna keep ignoring me,
And making me feel bad for trying to make her laugh/smile,
Then I'm done, there was really no reason for that yesterday,
It really hurt my feelings, and I don't need negativity from her anymore,
I wanted my friend back, but not if I have to feel bad about it first




I'm done venting, thanks for reading.

I Have Sad News

I am not getting or putting together a Halloween Costume this year.


I had to give up my Halloween for the Xbox, I kinda regret it, but I plan on cosplaying next year at cons, so it won't be such a big deal.


Kinda sad.


I do have a ratty black wig, a zipper face kit, and some Halloween makeup, I can do something with that.


Really sad.

Happy Monday

So it's Monday.
Joy to the world.
I'm freezing.
Anyway lemme give you an update on what happened Friday and Sunday.
On Friday I gave her a folder with a letter in it,
Along with some Supernatural pictures
And just as I was writing about that encounter,
She sits down at the table I was at and we start talking.
I also made her some Destiel pictures.
When I got home, I painted a cup for her, as well.
On Sunday (Let's just skip Saturday)
We went to the Berlin farmer's market
And I got the thing I have been wanting for a looooooong time
I got an original Xbox !
I have been wanting to play Jet Set Radio Future for the longest time
And now I finally can !
Fuck Yes !

Halloween is in 15 days !!!

So Halloween is in 2 weeks
And I have NO IDEA what I wanna be.
My budget is roughly $60
And I've thought of what I could be
The Tardis, The 11th Doctor, a witch, a pirate
The Embodiment of Halloween...
However I'm missing all the sales and coupons
So I have to pay more
And I can't have this costume without this piece
Or that piece
And it's just so fustrating
Any Ideas ?

STILL

She's STILL ignoring me.
Can't even manage a "Hi"
I'm trying not to let it bother me
However, it's irking me
Whatever though
I'm tired of this
I just wanna get past this
And at least be aquaintances