Hello ?

Anyone wanna talk to me ?

I am absolutely lonely

And I desire human interaction

Even if only through a computer.

Please, someone ?

Can I Just Say....

Can I just say how fucking fed up I am with people who treat me like shit...
Like really, my ex-boyfriend of 3 years refuses to talk to me, and we didn't even really break up
We haven't seen other people or anything, he just started hating me, for no apparent reason
And when I reach out to him, it's like am I messaging you ? Are you there ?
It's been months, and sometimes he'll pop a message in here or there, and it's usually rude
I miss him, I miss just being able to have someone on my side, who would always talk with me.
It's frustrating now, I come home, and it's silence until the next morning when I go to school
And school lets out for the summer in a week, and then it'll be silence 24/7
I hate it....I can't handle it...it pushes the boundaries of my mentality
And no matter how often I try to look for a friend, no one reaches out to me
So I'm just fed up mostly with this boy, he's 20, but he's no man, he's a fucking child
I can't deal anymore....I can't.

I don't regret it...

So...I cut last night. I guess it's not that big of a deal, it's like whatever, but now I have to wear them around for a couple of weeks, which is sad. I honestly don't care that I did it though, it took me a while to actual get the courage to do the thing I've been wanting to do for awhile, and I finally did. I played the happiest/funniest song I like at the moment and just started cutting. So yeah. That's all.

Cosplay Future

Hey Everyone,


I have a question for any cosplayers out there.
Would anyone want to cosplay with me ? Like we can do anything as long as we are both familiar with it. I wanna really start cosplaying and I want a buddy to do it with me.
I've done Marceline, but I looked like crap. Sooo, yeah, I just went to AnimeNEXT and I was really upset that I couldn't cosplay, I really wanted to do Marceline but like I said, my axe bass was broken, and I lost my fangs. I wanted to do Porrim from Homestuck, but my friend wasn't able to finish my outfit. So there's two things I'm interested in cosplaying right there : Adventure Time and Homestuck.


As for anything I plan on doing in the future, I am focusing on losing some weight before I start really cosplaying because I am vain and want to look good. So yeah. My future cosplay endeavors I want to do are : Steampunk Fionna, any version of Marceline the Vampire Queen, Fem! Dr Facilier, some others but I can't think of them right now.


So yeah, message me, comment, email me, hit me up on my tumblr, whatever. I just want a cosplay buddy and I'm trying to be less anti-social.


BTW : email = emobrokencydebabe@hotmail.com or xxbloodyxmaryxx@gmail.com
tumblr = lacrimosaxkilledxsoftly

Sooo....AnimeNEXT ?

So I had a shitty time at AnimeNEXT this year, lemme just tell you Saturday that I totally broke the record for sitting (9 fucking hours without getting up, my ass hurt). Also I am the most anti-social, depressing bitch to ever attend a event which is supposed to be fun and exciting. I wish I would've cosplayed, but someone broke my axe bass and I lost my fangs so I couldn't do Marcy, and my Porrim cosplay wasn't done yet. I'm maybe thinking of the next con I want to attend, and it could be Katsucon 2015, but that depends if I find friends for a hotel room and when our school's musical is. But definitely I will be going to AnimeNEXT 2015. All in all, this year was a joke for me, but I did love everyone's cosplays.

Boo

Im having the worst time at AnimeNEXT, just saying.

AnimeNEXT is next week

So excited to be going to AnimeNEXT this year :D