LOSER

So i lost my class election, which is complete and utter bullshit, I ran for Historian an  lost to a gurl who never even came to meetings before the candidate meeting. I am truly upset and distraught, because i am basically every position in my sophomore class. I did meetings, i made posters, i planned shit. I was President, VP, Secretary. and Historian rolled into one person and now because elections are like a popularity contest I lost to someone who probably isn't gonna do as good a job as i did.

RESEARCH PAPER

Research Papers suck ass -.-

NEEEEEEEEEEEEED FRIENDS D;

HAIIII PEOPLE~

I wanna make new friends so here’s a short list of shit I’m into, if we’re into the same shizz send me a message :D I’LL GIVE CHOCOLATE CAKE, I PROMISE !!!!! 

Adventure Time :D

Hetalia :3

Sherlock ;)

Regular Show :}

Harry Potter :)

A lot of different animes ;3

Me ? SuperWhoLock ?

Soooooooooooooo, I wanna become a SuperWhoLock fan, and I'm gonna start today...by first watching Sherlock because there's only 6 episodes, then I'll do Doctor Who, then Supernatural, and hopefully be finished by the end of August (maybe) YAY for fandoms~

NETFLIX

Just found out they have Hetalia on Netflix.....I love watching anime on my tv instead of my tiny laptop screen :D YAAAAAAAAAAY

JUS SO YOU KNOW BABY....

I HAVE TRANS PRIDE....



Tonight

I haven't cut in what feels like a month or more, but I guess I'm breaking that streak tonight, I can't hold back my urge and I have to do it....even more so after seeing the pained look in his eyes when i told him...how can i not cut ?

I'm sorry Al...

Russia~

I really wanna cosplay Russia from Hetalia, he's my favorite :3

ERMAGERD

Please....

Please let me kill myself....do not put guilt on me about anything, just let me commit suicide and you'll no longer have to worry about me

TRIP

BALTIMORE TRIP TOMORROW~ :D

This Friday

Day of Silence is this Friday, what are you doing to end the silence ?

I can't wait to participate again

Uncreative

I'm so uncreative because I can't think of a name for my G.S.A

UGH, but on a better note the advisor of my group has been telling me that we're getting a lot of positive feedback from teachers and students, which makes me very happy~ :D

Prussia X Russia

Okay, so i was fucking around with my google search of Hetalia, and I came across the Prussia and Russia ship, it's kinda cute :3 I saved like 6 pictures of them together

RussiaXPrussia

but my heart still belongs to

RussiaXGermany <3

Dr. Seuss

Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It's not. - Dr. Seuss (The Lorax)

Maybe...

Maybe I wouldn't feel so worthless, and so done with life if I had a friend who cared about me and was there for me.

I really miss the year where I was so emerged in my online accounts that I was actually making friends and talking to people.

I wouldn't mind that again, but I'm not social at all, I wait for someone to talk to me first 

Maybe I'll wait awhile, and see if I can make any friends before I end my life

At least let me live my life to the fullest before I commit suicide...

Release Me...

Can someone release me from this pain I feel ?

Can someone release me from the emotions I dread ?

Can someone release me from this life I live ?

I wish to be released and finished with this life, I'm done living it, I was not meant to be here, I was not meant to be worth something one day

If I'm gone, no one has to worry about me, and I can be free...I can be free from what holds me in shackles, I can be free from what binds me to the earth

Let Me Be Released ! Let Me Be Free !

Contemplating...

Contemplating whether or not if I should cut...

my embarrassment has been making me extremely upset, that I've been secluded in my room all day, crying every few hours

I just wanna feel numb for a little...

I WILL GO DOWN WITH THIS SHIP

GUESS WHO I SHIP !!!! 


OKAY, so I ship Russia & Germany from Hetalia 

ERMAGERD, I adore both of them so I thought why not ship them together, and I LOVE the pairing !!!! 

SO EMBARRASSED

So, today after school, I was walking Al to the buses (like I usually do everyday), and I say "I like you" to him like I do when I'm being nice and playful. And he says, "You think I don't know, it's obvious." 

Oh my gawd, my face got so hot, my heart started racing, and I almost started to cry (I managed to keep from crying until I got home, yes I know PATHETIC) 

He tried to hug me goodbye, but I was so flustered I kept backing away from him and saying "No." I just was really upset, and I couldn't handle it. So I'm kinda scared to see him on Monday.

Sorry to post my embarrassing & pathetic experience guys D:

Story - Ch 1~

So I started writing a story, and I thought I'd share it, I'm only on the 5th chapter, maybe later I'll post some more chapters, anyway please enjoy, and if you think it's crap you're allowed to say so, everyone has their own opinion :)

Chapter 1

 

“I’m done for the night, sir, thank you for letting me work here in your restaurant for 3 years, I’m gonna miss this place.” she said with a tear forming in her eye.

“This place will miss you too, you were a big help. Now you take care of yourself while you’re in New York City, little lady. I wish you the best of luck, and here’s a little gift from all of us here.” her boss said, handing her a gift basket filled with movies, books, and candy. “For when you’re bored and have nothing better to do.”

She thanked him again and walked out the restaurant doors, as she got in her beat up car, she took one last look at the place she had grown to love for the past 3 years, sighed and drove off towards her home. She didn’t really wanna go home, it was horrid there, but tonight was thankfully her last night in that hell hole. As she parked her car in the drive through, she could already hear the screams coming from inside, probably her parents fighting again for the 9th time in 3 days. She opened her car door, and just sat like that for about 10 minutes before she decided to enter her house. As she entered the house, she saw broken glass everywhere, and the couch was flipped over, she felt the urge to start crying, but held it in as she ran past the destruction and into her room, to finish packing. Her parents didn’t know she was leaving, they’d have to find out the hard way, but she doubted they would care.

She got accepted to Columbia University in NYC and was heading out there early in the morning so her parents wouldn’t know. She had to wait 5 more hours before it was safe. As the time ticked away she got more and more anxious, she continually checked her bags to make sure she had all her possessions she wanted to take. She had already bought an apartment and would get a job as soon as she got there, she had all summer to do so, since her semester didn’t start until the fall.

It was time. Time to finally get outta here, it was 4:30am, and she quietly started loading her baggage into the back of her car, it barely fit, but she worked her magic. Just as she was about to pull outta the driveway she heard a voice coming from the side of the house.

“Who’s there ?” she asked with a hint of fear.

“Are you running away ?” it was her mum, dressed in her bathrobe, hair all messy, and her face stained with caked on makeup. I shook my head, and she suddenly became cross.

“Don’t lie, you’re bags are all packed, and it’s 4:30 in the fucking morning !”

“I got accepted to Columbia, I’m going to NYC to follow my dreams, and you can’t stop me.”

Her mother sighed and tossed her something through the car window.

“What is this.” she asked, staring at her mother.

“$6,000, to help get you started. I knew you were leaving, I got the mail one day you didn’t come home, hoping to get my package, and I saw an envelope from Columbia and about your apartment. I’ll tell your dad when he wakes up, don’t worry, just go.” her mother muttered.

She just nodded and pulled outta the driveway, and onto the street, starting her journey to NYC, she couldn’t believe it, she was finally free. She headed towards her dream city, only good thoughts enveloping her mind. She couldn’t wait.

FIRST MEETING

Today is the first meeting of my G.S.A (Gay-Straight Alliance) !!!

Can't wait to see if anyone comes today, kinda nervous, hopefully not a lot of negative feedback !

Starts at 2:30 :D

We'll also be planning our day of silence !

HETALIA

Friggin' in LOVE with Hetalia right now ! It is so cute and funny, I can't get over it.

 

My favorites are

 

RUSSIA

BRITAIN
GERMANY &

ITALY ♥

 

FRIDAY

Tonight at my school

We are hosting a...

MURDER MYSTERY DINNER !

 

 



just wanted to say.....

RAWR !~

NEW FANDOM

i'm like slowly but steadily obsessing over Hetalia xD it's so adorable !

TUMBLR

HEY GUYS AND GALS ~

JUST WANTED TO MAKE A QUICK POST AND TELL YOU ALL THAT I HAVE A TUMBLR !

I'VE HAD ONE FOR AWHILE, BUT I JUST NEVER SAID ANYTHING (NOT THAT IT'S IMPORTANT)

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FOLLOW ME IF YOU WANT

I'D APPRECIATE IT DOLLS <3