Beauty in the Water

BEAUTY IN THE WORLD
ANGEL ON THE BEACH
OCEAN'S DAUGHTER

i literally love this song {Mermaid - Train}

It causes instant orgasms for my ears

ERMAGERD ;D

BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ;3

 

Going to eat out tonight, then I'm really celebrating my birthday on Saturday with my friends~

 

And then tomorrow is my 3 year anniversary with my boyfriend

 

I'm 16 btw :D

DREADFUL DAY

Today is the anniversary of my grandfather's death...

I really miss Papi ♥

I wish he was here, there's so many problems with my family that he would've neutralized

Semi-Formal

That's the dress I want for my semi-formal in 2 weeks, it's only $17 and it's from DEB ;D

No title

So what's your reason ?

Lost your friends ? Someone die ? Family problems ?

Do you feel sad, hurt, confused, alone, suicidal ?

So many reasons, so little room left on your wrists, your stomach, your legs

You hide it all, it's your secret, it's your way of life

What do you use ?

Scissors, pocket knife, glass, razor ?

Does it feel exhilarating ?

Does it subside your pain ?

So what if it hurts him ? So what if she bleeds ?

It doesn't hurt you...It's not your blood

It's not your body, It's not your life

It's to cope, it's a thrill

It lets you be in control

It makes you feel alive !

So what if this person is covered in scars ?

So what if it becomes an addiction ?

So what if this person does it their entire life ?

Let them cut

Let them cut until they're dripping crimson

HOW MANY DAYS ?!?!?!

7 MORE DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY !!!

I'LL BE 16 YEARS OLD~

;D YAY

PINK

I DYED MY HAIR PINK !!!!

BEST DYE JOB I'VE DONE FOR MYSELF

SO HAPPY & I'VE BEEN GETTING COMPLIMENTS ALL DAY !!!

;D

Jack the Ripper

JACK THE RIPPER

 also known as the

WHITE CHAPEL MURDERER & THE LEATHER APRON

 

OK ! So If I haven't talked about him before, I will now and why I had a bit of an obsession with him during last summer which carried me to the psych ward at the beginning of the school year

 

A book called the Name of the Star got me into Jack the Ripper and I just had to find out more about him, he just seemed so fascinating (check out the book, it's amazing)

 

So all throughout the summer, I'd go to the library and check out books on this mysterious fellow nick-named Jack the Ripper.

 

When the school year started, I would write his name on everything (that's what I do when I become "obsessed" with something)

 

I'd also write things like "He'll mutilate your body until you're unrecognizable" and just shit like that, I guess that scared my Geometry teacher because he reported it and I got sent to the hospital, then to  psych ward for a week.

 

WORSE EXPERIENCE

 

But I don't ever regret becoming interested in Jack the Ripper, he's pretty interesting, this...person, was able to evade the Scotland Yard and murder these women without ever being found  out, that's brilliant.

 

I'd like to know my facts about this person as much as I can, he is my "god" (kidding)

 

Jack the Ripper, he'll slit your throat, rip out you insides, and mutilate your body until no one can recognize you !

Letter

This is a letter I wanted to give my friend Al, but it's embarrassing so I thought I'd show the world how pathetic I am instead xD, it's just me expressing my feelings for him and I wish I wasn't such  a coward that I'd be able to send it to him.

Dear Al,

Ever since my first dream about you in January, I have to say that I've started having feelings for you hunny. And then the other night, when I was enveloped in my thoughts about you and Brooke, I went to sleep and had a another dream about you...I went to the guidance offices and saw you leaving and I immediately started bawling my eyes out, followed by wrapping my arms around your neck, and saying "I love you", you just hugged me tight...and said some things. To not FREAK you out, I DON'T love you, like I'm not in love with you (I love you as a friend), but I just really like you. i think you're cute, kind, friendly, caring, sweet, smart, EXTREMELY funny, handsome...the list goes on. You make me so genuinely happy, any time I'm with you, you just brighten my day. I love your smile, your funny faces you make at me, and especially your hugs; when you hug me tight, I never wanna leave your grasp, your hugs make my heart melt. Even though you only talk to me when I'm upset or cutting (I wish you talked to me more on skype, and maybe even webcam every once in awhile) *sigh* I guess sometimes it seems like I don't like you, I do, and sometimes you're stuck on my mind. You don't have to reply to this, or even say anything to me about this (actually I'd rather you just read it and never speak of it because I know you would never have feelings for me in a million years) Anyway, I'm done with my stupid, disgusting feelings, it was embarrassing, bye baby~

Soler Lacrimosa~ 3/15/13

Feeling A Little Better

Feeling a little better since yesterday, talked with Al, got things worked out

I still broke down last night and cut my wrists...

But I'm fine, I suppose

Done...

I have no idea what I wanna talk about, I don't even know why I'm writing this, All I know is that I'm really upset, I haven't been very productive, and I just really hate myself, and I just wanna go home and cry

I'm very dedicated to my clubs and activities, but I don't feel like doing anything today which is kinda bad...I'm always busy, and I can't stand it right now...I just wanna go home and sleep...but if I sleep then I'll never wake up or get outta bed for a long time.

So tired right now...and I miss my friends....very much...

My GSA

So, i have started a GSA in my school and i'm so happy

Our first meeting will be in April~

I'm glad it wasn't rejected this time like i heard some gurl's was a couple years ago

My only problem is people not joining but i guess i'll have to wait and see